Never ..barely

Miss someone we never/barely met… Love someone we never/barely met… Willing to give it all up for a chance to be with someone we never/barely met…

That’s kinda scary how human feelings/love is sometimes and there’s not always a wrong or right, “go for it” “don’t go for it”… sometimes you gotta take chances.

We might get hurt along the way but that’s the risk some of us are willing to take; and learn from it.

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One thing I learned, Do your best not to put any guy or girl highly on top of a metaphorical pedestal believing that they are a god/goddess walking among humans. It’s those “pedestal bitches” that will leave in you disappointment and hurt. No matter how attractive/pure or whatever it is that makes you think so highly of them, at the end of the day they gotta take a shit too.

ps. in moderation.

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Truth is, I didn’t want “better” or less…I just wanted and needed you.

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Kokoro Kara Aiseru Hito..Kokoro Kara Otoshii Hito
Kono Boku No Ai No Mannaka Ni Wa, Itsumo Kimi Ga Iru Kara..

心から愛せる人
心から愛しい人
この僕の愛の真ん中にはいつも心(きみ)がいるから

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The thoughts of you..girl(s) going through my head

yeah it’s nice and all when I think about being in a relationship, doing cute things together and HAVING that special someone - it actually really nice and makes me happy and smile by myself; but to actually carry out those thoughts to become a reality, I can’t help but question myself as these at the very least:

• “are you really worth it?”
• “am I willing to sacrifice this and that for you?”
• “would you do the same?”
• “do you even feel the same?”
• “am I even ready for all this?”
• “is she mature or still on that glitter chasing bs”
• “what do I like about her the most?”
• “does she even put feelings behind those <3’s she sends like I do?”

“will she love my mom and dad as I do?”

and..

“if I love her…will she even love me the same?”

While from personal experience with guys, their minds are  “damn, she looks fine as fck and got a nice ass booty” if not “damn, I want to fck the shit out of her”

When I notice a “fine ass girl” or any attractive girl, I look at her and question this to myself the most:

• “I wonder how she looks like & I want to see how she looks like without make-up”
• “I wonder how her personality is and what she wants to do for herself”
• “is she a family person?”
• “I wonder if she likes to eat japanese food at least lol”
• “education?”
• “materialistic?”

why? because I want to be able to wake up to see her face and not be all confused and ask her to put that person back on. Personality, because a chubbyasianlover ain’t trying to put up with no conceited ass psycho, which brings it to family. I’m a family person, I love my family and want to have a family of my own and have the same love at the very least for my kid(s) in their upbringing. etc.

To be blunt, I’m thinking with my heart and mind - not with whats in between my legs. Not to say that I don’t lust or anything, but I rather lust 100% and love with passion in a relationship than a “wham, bam, thank you ma’am.”

I’m not saying I don’t care for girls with pornstar bodies, I’m just not as interested - do I really need to explain why? I very much rather have a regular cute asian girl that I can be cute with and eat/watch anime/travel, etc. with that I can see raising our kids with true love..

With that said I think I’m done for now, I just haven’t wrote much lately, so this is just more of whats goes on my mind etc. 5:13am..a chubbyasianlover needs to watch anime and go to sleep!

"You say that you love rain, but you open your umbrella when it rains,
You say that you love the sun, but you find a shadow spot when the sun shines,
You say that you love the wind, but you close your windows when wind blows;
This is why I am afraid, you say that you love me too."

summaaayyyy:

People complain about how there’s no one out there for them, and when there is someone out there fighting for their love, they either push them away, or get annoyed of them saying they are really annoying and what not because they aren’t the one they want. Human beings are cruel -.-‘

Unfortunately that’s how it is, we tend to try and feed our WANTS not our NEEDS.

chinabean:

SMDH can’t help but notice that there’s an increase of these…straight up “creepers,” who play wolf in sheep’s clothing by being “friends” and friendly with people with their subliminal gestures - I mean girl they ain’t in it for the love, relationship, or friendship; they are doing it just for the…

Peter Imperialy Bean, girls do this. Early in life they want Mr. Macho badass with the @$$hole “wannabe thug” attitude that treats them like sh*t for a few years. Once they get cheated on and beat down a few times sometimes it clicks with them, sometimes a hoe is gonna be a hoe. Some girls dig being treated like garbage, sad but, true my friend.

Those aren’t the girls you want anyway, used, abused, driven hard and put away wet. Bitter to the world and hate men, using them for material purposes trading ass for Louis V bags and fake ass Coach shoes. LOL Find a good girl w/ good morals and high self esteem that loves you for you man. I guarantee no one in your current circle represents this kind of female Unco Nicky.

SMDH can’t help but notice that there’s an increase of these…straight up “creepers,” who play wolf in sheep’s clothing by being “friends” and friendly with people with their subliminal gestures - I mean girl they ain’t in it for the love, relationship, or friendship; they are doing it just for the taste. Maybe I thought too highly of you - maybe you are really just a genuine hoodrat afterall; I just hope you don’t turn around and be bitter towards ALL guys after he spits in your face for your participation in this so-called “game.”